so . . . have you done anything nice lately?

i haven't.

i kinda hate babies. that's not very nice. but neither are they.

Hey hey, my my, rock and roll will never die

First I would like to say it was not very nice of me not to post for so long, and I apologize. It's funny, because for a while last week I was thinking, "I am the happiest I have ever been! I'm juggling my work and school and self so adroitly, and thinking a lot about helping other people even if not always performing life-changing acts of service and I feel extremely fulfilled. . ." and then it just like FELL APART. I don't even know why because it's not like a family member died or anything, it's just that these two little tiny things happened that really stressed me out and I forgot to care about anyone else. And do you want to hear what they were? They're so dumb, you're gonna laugh. 1) My bike lock broke while I was in the gym and my bike was stuck on campus for a week and I was really mad. 2) I lost my work name tag on the street which is an absolute necessity of course and I tried fruitlessly to buy a new one but things kept going wrong and I was so scared my boss would be mad at me for missing my name tag, but finally after three days I bought a new one (yeah I had to buy one for five whole dollars) and that same day I LOST IT AGAIN (because I was borrowing other people's bikes with seats lower than I'm used to so when I bend my legs my pockets open up and stuff falls out--even though I tried really hard to remember to but my new name tag in my purse before I started biking) and I didn't want to have to buy another one because the lady who made mine for me the first time was acting really annoyed and mean. Plus it is midterm overload week .. . . but whatever, it's lame, huh? And I know none of those is a big deal, which is why it makes me feel even worse to be stressed out about them. I am not even a cancer victim or a Bosnian refugee or a recovering alcoholic or anything. Good thing nothing truly bad has ever happened to me, because obviously I could not handle it.
Anyway. None of that belongs on a blog about nice deeds, I know. The point is I forgot to try being nice and as a result I felt like things were going even worse than they really were; it became a positive feedback loop wherein I became a terrible person. Not really, but I no longer felt on top of my life. I really think that putting your extra thoughts into other people rather than your own stupid name tags and bike locks makes that difference. Spiritual thought: When you try hard to feel Heavenly Father's love for other people, you do, and you feel it for yourself, too, and you feel like everything is going to be okay. When you forget, you feel like nothing is going right even though it's not that big a deal. So I'm going to be better this week and I'm gonna WRITE ABOUT IT, too.
Lest you stay up all night worrying about me, I'll tell you that I found my name tag (in my purse!--ha, how vexing and yet relieving), and my dad came down and sliced my lock off my bike today so I just have to mail it in and MasterLock will send me a replacement. Also I did one nice thing today and shared all the Halloween candy that my mom sent me.

I stopped myself before doing something very mean today.

That is all.